Because Zac was going to be gone Wednesday night, we invited Amber & Ella over for a slumber party. Todd okayed it and they came over around 5:30. We made a yummy asian chicken salad for dinner and let the kids play for a while before bedtime. After the littles were down, we watched the past two episodes of Glee together and basked in each other's company. (: We spent a couple hours after that just like the old days. Sprawled on the couch in pjs & talking and laughing till late. We finally went to sleep around 1:00 am, but it was worth the tiredness the next day & I'm glad we can still make slumber parties & late night chat sessions a priority.
Amber definitely knows me better than most anyone besides my mom & Zac...and in some ways better than anyone-including myself! There is something humbling about that realization and the knowledge that she still loves me and accepts me no matter what. I'm grateful for her perspective, her consistency, and the fact that she's honest with me. I talked to her about some things that I've been thinking about myself or wanting to work on and her perspective was so intuitive because she's known me for so long and knows the me that I sometimes try to cover up or hide (mostly the goofy & insecure side). And, it felt a little exposing to have those things out in the open, but so cleansing at the same time. She will hold me accountable & help me through anything while still being completely supportive and understanding if I don't reach my goals in the timeline I want. Love that. I think the best way I can explain it is in relation to something I told her about Zac and myself. When I met Zac and we became friends and then our relationship slowly turned more serious, I realized then & even more now, that he was the first guy I'd had or even thought about having a relationship with, who could really SEE me. He saw who I was AND who I could become. And he loved me then and still loves me now. Sometimes I found myself thinking, "You see me. You get me. You know me. You love me." It was crazy to feel that way and to have found that fierce connection. I feel the same way about Amber.
She has always seen me. She gets me. She loves me. She knows me. She's protective of me.
And, I really really love that about her.
Amber definitely knows me better than most anyone besides my mom & Zac...and in some ways better than anyone-including myself! There is something humbling about that realization and the knowledge that she still loves me and accepts me no matter what. I'm grateful for her perspective, her consistency, and the fact that she's honest with me. I talked to her about some things that I've been thinking about myself or wanting to work on and her perspective was so intuitive because she's known me for so long and knows the me that I sometimes try to cover up or hide (mostly the goofy & insecure side). And, it felt a little exposing to have those things out in the open, but so cleansing at the same time. She will hold me accountable & help me through anything while still being completely supportive and understanding if I don't reach my goals in the timeline I want. Love that. I think the best way I can explain it is in relation to something I told her about Zac and myself. When I met Zac and we became friends and then our relationship slowly turned more serious, I realized then & even more now, that he was the first guy I'd had or even thought about having a relationship with, who could really SEE me. He saw who I was AND who I could become. And he loved me then and still loves me now. Sometimes I found myself thinking, "You see me. You get me. You know me. You love me." It was crazy to feel that way and to have found that fierce connection. I feel the same way about Amber.
She has always seen me. She gets me. She loves me. She knows me. She's protective of me.
And, I really really love that about her.
5 comments:
OK, crying now. Love you, Karl.
So great that you have that type of relationship. Its a good thing for sure!
I love reading about you and Amber. You guys are such great friends. It makes me jealous. I wish we had stayed more connected after I left Nyssa in 6th grade. I don't think I new how to stay that connected to my good friends in 6th grade. Does a 6th grader know how to do that? :)
Karli you seem to be so in tune with yourself and in tune with what is going on around you. You seem to know what you want and how to get it. I like that about you. Something I strive to do everyday. You are great!
I've always been in awe at your relationship with Amber. It's respectable that you have someone like that you are so close with as a girlfriend. I am SO grateful you have her in your life!
I really love that you two have such a great friendship. It's something that I love to hear about and I admire the both of you.
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