wednesday

Becca called & asked if I'd go to Nampa with her to get frames for the enlarged pictures at Tom's memorial.  My mom kept my boys and Treyce for Bec and we left Wednesday {6th} at 9:00.  We stopped at Costco to pick up her pictures, grabbed a diet soda, and headed to Meridian.  We got all her frames at Craft Warehouse, and then I treated Becca to a spray tan.  It was both our first time and we were pretty giddy/scared about it.  What if we turned orange?!  We figured it would give her some nice color to go with her dress for Saturday {along with a needed boost of feeling good}, but be faded enough in case we hated it!  I went first and I am a complete dork.  The booth tells you when to turn and everything, and I still forgot to turn the third time until halfway through!  Haha, oh well, no one sees my back except Zac!  Becca enjoyed it too and we left hoping it would be okay.  We grabbed a quick something to eat and headed back to Costco to grab her other pictures.  At this point in the drive home we started noticing a few things.  Her face was rapidly getting darker and my left thumb looked really dirty.  Dang! (:  We were laughing pretty hard though & I so enjoyed getting out with her and the boys love playing together.  Taylor actually picked up Gray and Treyce to take them out for ice cream cones which they loved.  Bec had lots to do still, so I dropped her at her car and just brought Treyce home with us.

Julie came over soon after and we worked on the slideshow for a good long while.  That is a crazy experience!  Good thing she knows what she's doing in iphoto with slideshows-she is amazing and pretty much did it all!  It was nice to spend the afternoon with her too.
I love the pictures of the three kiddos because it reminds me of Rock, Zac, and Tom.  I hope these three stay good friends & take care of each other as they grow up.

Before Becca picked Treyce up, I was feeding the boys dinner.  They were just sitting at the table together while I worked on the computer & Bex was in his high chair.  This was a part of their conversation that almost brought me to tears:
G- Do you miss your dad Treyce?
T- Yeah.
G- So you really miss him a lot?
T- Yeah...him haved an xbox.
G- oh.
They are so cute.  So innocent.  So much closer to God than me.  I know that little kids are resilient and trusting and flexible, but I can't help hurting for Treyce and the fact that he won't grow up with Tom here on this earth and what little time he had, he may forget.  I'm so glad he is a little buddy to Grayson because he really is a great kid.  When Zac got home he was extra snuggly to him and Zac just soaked it up with both boys.  I know Treyce, Pres, and Terren will all have lots of "daddy" figures watching over them from now on.

Bec came to pick him up and we had a good little chat.  She was tired.  Feeling run down.  My heart hurt for her.  She said she didn't feel like cooking dinner and if I thought that was normal.  I told her considering my life has not been rocked like hers and I never want to cook dinner, she is definitely normal.  Hugged her, told her I loved her, sent her home to be with her kids.  Alone.  My heart hurts for her.  My attention toward Zac is longer.  More real.  More focused.  I want to drink up every minute I have with him because I know we are never guaranteed as much time as we want.  Becca told me today to not take any time I have with him for granted.  To not ever do marriage halfway.  To take advantage of the time we have for laughter, late night conversations, intimacy, and just the knowledge that someone else gets me for me, day in and day out.  I am really trying hard to heed her advice on a daily basis.

It was late, but I really needed to do my run because I started the couch to 5k program on Monday and was only on day two.  I had both boys in bed asleep by 8:30 {which is basically unheard of around here} and I called clients, did some business, folded some laundry.  Around 9:30 {Zac was working late on a tractor}, McCall and my cousin Caitlyn came over to hang out with the sleeping kiddos and I ran over to my mom's to use her treadmill.  It felt so good to just do my workout despite the fact that I would rather have been sleeping! (:  And, when I got home Zac was home and we were able to just spend time chatting till late-something I love.

Oh yeah, by the end of the night my tan had developed quite nicely and I remembered how much I adore the feeling of having one.  Especially with the added bonus of not possibly getting skin cancer along side it!